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Hey Everyone. Fanime pre-registration is opening! Hope we all get to go again like last year. It will be nice to have a reunion! I just recently finished a big framed photo collage of our adventures and it got me missing you all.

Livejournal slump, but Ive been writing a lot of private entries (online and paper).

Some news!

In case you haven't heard through grapevine, I am currently single. It's not a bad thing, and the relationship ended rather smoothly and drama-free. In the meantime, I've been keeping really busy with various activities and friends. Especially with my new cat, Katu. He's like a dog in a way... cutest thing... waits for me to come home by the door, loves to play, loves to follow me around from room to room. I adore him ;}

Sometime in the last few months, I developed a big secret crush on my coworker. He is a friend, and I started thinking that our fliting meant something more. Through another person, though, I found out that he had started a relationship with someone overseas. And then I found out some things about him that weren't so great. It was a big let-down. Real teen high school like angst. I should make a comic about it. We're okay now, Im moving on from that. I never confessed and so he'll never know...

I've been going to the industrial goth club sometimes. I really like the choice of music and dancing is just so great. I don't go there to meet anybody in particular... but I've been gathering attention from the boys there. Usually, Im so buzzed I give out my number when they ask (thinking new friends, right? ^^) but... ya... they're texting me now and Im not sure what to do about it. Im too nice to just flat out ignore the messages. *shrug*

What else? This is the good stuff, compact bite size paragraphs for your reading pleasure. Of course there are more details and background stories to things here.

Oh yes. I now have an xbox now,a Gears of War edition because it was a craigslist ad and cheaper then buying it brand new. It's pretty sweet! But I now need to get a new TV in order to play it.

I can't really think of anything else. I mean there's plenty!! But it would need a whole heck of a lot more entry substance... and Im off to go to ZUMBA.

Werrrrr....
I know every homestuck fan and their mother will be cosplaying dog tier Jade and probably cosplaying her badly.. but as Tomo guessed it.. I STILL WANT TO DO IT!! Im so anti-bandwagon.. but I can't help it!! So darn cute!

Dream indications...

Last nights dream involved having my entrails and bowels getting surgically removed. I was sewn back up and surprisingly still alived. Yet I worried over how long I would have to live. I felt like time was running out. I retrieved the bag of my organs and asked whether they could be put back in if I kept them on ice. But then I was taken shopping. I felt light and very empty. But I went to this Japanese boutique store with plastic figurines. The owner of the shop pulled out all of these beautiful accessories like hair combs, earrings, necklaces that she had hand-made. They were all neat and unique. I didnt want to buy anything because it was around $40 a piece, but then I ended up giving in. I really like the earrings because they had a dragon (inlaid stone mosiac on gold) that started on one side and ended on the other. There was this beautiful hair comb hand carved out of some wood, it had beads attached to on end so you could use it as an accessory. There was this figurine of a samurai bunny. Surprisingly it cost $200, because of its multiple pieces and it was bigger than I thought but I didn't say anything. I considered removing it from my shopping list. I was getting ready to buy everything and I realize that the store is almost closing, I had been there for a very long time. I wondered how I was still alive with missing organs, and wondered if they had grown back or simply were not necessary for survival. I then realize that I needed to go to the airport to catch an airplane. I was running late! I woke up with the song, "Hotel California" stuck in my head.

•To dream that you or someone else is undergoing surgery signifies the opening of the Self and/or the need for emotional healing. You need to "cut out" or eliminate something from your life
•To dream that you are shopping symbolizes your needs and desires. It also represents opportunities and options that you come across in life. Consider what you are shopping for and what needs you are try to fulfill.
•To dream of an airline flight symbolizes a project that is about to take off.

Odd, but Im listening to Eminem at 5 in the morning. :|

My company's social event, the art and music festival, is this weekend. I helped organize and coordinate a lot of it. I'm also going to be adding some of my art to the co-worker gallery. I'm pretty nervous about this because it's a side of me that not many know about. Majority of my artwork is heavily anime based. Also, Ill be putting my machine-sewn cosplay on display also. Terrified!!! I keep thinking that I'll be hearing whispers. Im proud of my hobbies, but also fearful of rejection. Please don't think I'm a freakish nerd!! The new obnoxious young anime fan base gives this subculture a bad rap. I kind of get the sense that this is what Tsukimi from Kuragehime feels like ... so dirty but it makes me happy!

I really like working at the Raptor Center. Along with the usual red-tailed, owl, falcon crew I got to feed a bald eagle two fish and a rat. Not hand-feed, I just put them on his platform. Just being in the pen in such proximity to huge glorious bird is quite amazing (almost religious) experience. I collected a couple of Bald Eagle wing feathers for for the staff. Apparently they are prized, rare, and expensive, and that there is a huge waiting list amongst the Native American population. Most of the day on sunday was spent dusting and cleaning, but the highlight of the day was having to capture Great Horned Owl for his health check. We health-checked three of them, and I had to hold two of them. OMG they are so cute. Bitey and grabby and alltogether terrifying, but ohh so precious.

I had an interested dream. I was playing a video game, except I was actually in the video game. It was an RPG/adventure game.. sort of like Shenmue, where I had to go around talking to people and doing tasks to progress the game. My character went by my actual name, and I was some kind of creature with amnesia. I know I wasn't human, but maybe a sprite? I wore a white cat hat, and felt comfortable bounding about on all fours. I worked as a servent at a theatre run by the mafia who were also considered noble royalty. I was nearing the completion of the game, a huge production musical play.

I got a tip from a blue-collared construction worker janitor. I used my charm and wits to convince him to tell me that I needed to prolong the festivities until really late. Then a demon would come an wipe them all out. I received another tip from the phantom of the opera. He told me that he wanted more costumes and banter between the characters. I ran to the stage and told the head servent who had a colorful turban. I did not exist to the people who ran the theatre.. I was a spirit to them. So she told the executives. They raised her up on the stage and included her in their festivities.

I crawled around the stage, thinking of how I could extend the festivities. I flew/drifted back to my dormitory. Nobody was home. I slowly peeking into my mentor/caretaker's room. His name was Mike, a gentle nerdy kind of guy who always wore a blue scarf. I had developed some sort of crush on him over the years. I'd never been in his room before, and I was drawn to the temptation. A movie was running, with projection pointed at the door I walked in, so it was kind of blinding. I noticed a note in the door. I read the note (ya I can actually read words in my dream). It was surprisingly addressed to me. It said (although my memory is foggy),

"I wrote this letter to see if you have been reading my correspondance. I will tell you for a fact that I am mostly human. This is what I can tell you, for what you need to do."